Finding love…

I don’t think love is meant to be this hard,
This confusing,
And this complicated…. LOL

For a while now I have been trying to find someone who can love me genuinely and show me around.

One who can show me around the things that make love work, to journey on the arms of understanding, mount on the wings of sacrifice and soar high on trust and passion.

I have tried a lot of times you see, to love like God but most times I try to find someone forgetting that it isn’t my job to find but to be found, to position myself and prepare myself for what is ahead.

To be a woman who can bring down the move of God on earth but here I am wasting time on my bed, worried if I ever will find love. not funny!

To be honest it’s crazy, there is nothing as hard as learning to enjoy your singleness in a broken world with a number of broken people.

A world where others have been hurt and need a heart to heal on. Leaving you the pillar hurt at the end of the day, i guess I have been preoccupied with living other people’s lives that I don’t feel like I have been living mine. I don’t feel up to the task, like I don’t have the strength to take all this and go through them boldly enough.

Right now I want to quit and just be held by God who has set the order and made it clear, so no matter how single you feel, no matter the surge of adrenalin trying to get you to rush into any relationship.

Remember to guard your heart cause it’s precious, it’s the throne of God and out of it comes the issues of life, always remember this scripture when life wants to rush you.

Stop and pray, stop trying and pray, stop searching and pray, stop looking and pray and when it gets so tough, when it seems you don’t understand the people around you, take a break from trying to understand and pray. A friend once told me that if prayer is not the answer it is the hand that holds the answer, so stretch your arms and receive…

Lately i found peace in meditating on the fact that when I trust God i don’t need to understand, some things won’t come so easy, I mean it’s easy for other People but there is purpose for you and that’s why it’s taking a little longer, so you can take time to prepare and brace yourself for the journey ahead is long.

Today I am not lonely, today I am not confused, today I look at the picture of the family and friendships/relationships I have as reference and I know they ain’t where they are today because they are perfect but because they put their trust in God the father.

So if you are single and you are reading this, Guard your heart, if you are not and you are reading this, you are still welcome and you have made it this far trust God to trust your spouse even when you don’t understand.

Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.
Proverbs 4:23 NLT

Before you learn to cross lines for people like harshtag learn to stand by them, learn to support them and when they don’t want you around. Close the doors and pray for them!

Learn to pray about everything and trust God for all that you need, learn to involve God in your life, in the little things you think don’t matter because at the end when you sum them up they do.

O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge. Interlude
Psalms 62:8 NLT

Give your burdens to the Lord , and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.
Psalms 55:22 NLT

God is love and I can’t lie to you this offering is hot but then …

Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:7 NLT

And when you are discouraged, remember

Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.
Isaiah 41:10 NLT

And finally, be intentional about living I said to myself, “I will watch what I do and not sin in what I say. I will hold my tongue when the ungodly are around me.”
Psalms 39:1 NLT

The sacrifice to love God and people is worth it…