If letters are underrated, then God has to be overrated, because every time we speak to Him, we are reading through the pages of our hearts!
Hello guys, I’M BACK!
Let’s skip the part where I have to ask if you missed me, cause definitely I miss you all. I had a busy semester and I could only do so little at a time; I had to pause writing to focus on school and basically school. If only I knew that studying veterinary medicine would cost me my youth, I would have studied… something else (you got me)
There is one thing I’m used too; having people ask me about my salvation story. I’m so used to it that I’m no longer in a rush to answer anyone anymore. I can smile right through the question and walk away nicely. But in the dodging and running, my favorite part of the story is my little secret. We all have that right?
I used to write secret letter to Jesus. Those days, I waited patiently for my Christian friends to return from church so they could tell me all they did, and the drama played in church.
THE MIRACLE OF EASTER
Easter was and is still my favorite break; it comes with so much pain and beauty. A story that has a way of melting my heart and making me feel strange emotions.
I had enough time to reflect through my life during one of my oral exams. And I recalled a love note I once wrote to this God I now know. I can’t remember it word for word, but I remember the terrible handwriting, the wrong spellings and the beautiful emotions terribly expressed.
I have always know that there is a God bigger than my thoughts, and at that young age I was discovering Him little by little.
So today; I wrote a letter to God, one that is similar to the one I wrote as a child who had no idea who He was or where He came from.
I have been trying to explain who You are or what You mean to me for a long time now, and each time I try I find myself speechless and then I feel all these mixed feelings.
A long time ago, I felt you in the drama my best friend was telling me out. I remember how she laughed about the guy who acted Jesus. But the following year I followed her to her school and I saw it all. I didn’t miss a thing about the act. I’m trying so hard not laugh at his wig, but it captured everything I read in the book. well, not exactly perfect but I get the point!
I still wonder what you thought of me on the cross. How you saw me, how you looked at my past and my future and you thought I was qualified for the price. I have tried to imagine the future but I have seen the possibilities of making more mistakes than I have now. Did I really qualify? Your thoughts about me are beautiful. I get giddy feelings when I wake up and smile good morning Holy Spirit. Now I know what that feeling is. I thought it was love but Apostle Joshua Selman said “the greatest phrase on earth is not ‘I love you’ but I need you.”
Look at me, you have made my life new, and you still make it new every morning. I once wrote in my letter a long time ago, and I asked you who you were. Today I am going to add one more thing to my letter. Thank you for making me like you!
Thank you for loving me ABBA…