I am going on a date tonight, my hopes ain’t so high, we don’t have any five star restaurant in Zari. But yeah, I am still super excited. Oh come Grace, come Finto, oh common on Mohadapwa, you all need to meet him. His amazing, his handsome, his strong, bold. All abs complete, I feel like I am the bone of his bone and the flesh of his flesh, I want nothing more… I feel like the Holy Spirit has answered my long pressing request.
Holy Spirit :
Really Lima, really?
You girls better not tell me to take it easy, whenever I see him there is no slowing down, I fight hard to catch my breathe. This will work, we fit each other, his my better half, my missing rib(LOL, my ribs are intact) my lullaby. 🎶
We got into the business of fixing my messy hair, in about half an hour my Mr charming will be out the door knocking. Will it startle me or sweep me off my feet.
“If only you stop talking and take it easy girl, we would be able to get you into this lovely dress.” Grace patted my head.
”But it too tight, no. it fit perfectly, revealing all my curves and edges.” I would be able to walk to him, thank goodness I don’t do well on heels so when I fall, I come right at him and he would catch me, before I fall.
Do I want to fall?
Finally I get to stare at myself in the mirror, I have never been this prepared, I illuminate every dark corner in the room.”Girls i am so excited”
“This isn’t it Lima, I don’t think it feels like something you would want to keep”
“oh common Moha, you are being to jittery. Trust me. “
Now every form of confidence dropped.
The only distance between us is the door,
Was it the door to my heart or the room?
What ever door it is, it has strong walls, walls i’m willing to take down for him.
It’s okay, I will invite the Holy Spirit in later, let him in all the details, skip the part where we had to share a kiss.
And move on to our happily ever after.
This love am willing to commit to, it’s scary but smells good.
When I see him behind the door, should i let him in?
Will you take me by my hand and tell me to stay by your side?
Do you know i’m willing to go forever with you?
Do you know I will be your support till you can stand on your own,
Have you any idea I would stand behind you in every battle of your life.
The door again, bringing me back to the realization, you are still behind the door.
and my heart is racing the pace,
why am i so afraid of letting you in,
Is it the past hurts?
Or the present guilt?
If your love is promising,
If your love is pure,
if your love is merciful,
If your love is kind,
if your love is true,
if your love is faithful.
“i’m coming” I yelled
But another step sent chills down my spine.
if your love is genuine,
If your love is humble,
If your love is forgiven,
If your love is giving,
I will open that door and throw my heart to you,
You are my treasure and that’s where my heart is.
Lima, what if he is wrong?
But i’m not looking for Mr Right Lord, cause I know he doesn’t exist.
The only Mr Right I can find is Mr close enough,
And I don’t want to settle for less.
Too late to guard my heart Lord…
So i shut the Holy Spirit out when he called out to stop,
I opened the door…
There he was, just like I pictured.
Tall, well built up, tanned skin, flexible muscles, strong jaw….
The walls I took my time to build, came crashing like that of Jericho..
He needed not to go round it over and over again, no screams, he crumbled it all down with just one gaze.
Should you choose to walk away like the one before you, I would wear my smile even if i’m dying. I won’t let you see me.
I will leave the grave behind me again.
Then he asked and my heart flattered. ‘can I come in?’
My limbs numbed like cooked noodles.
”Yes please”, I replied not withstanding, never listening to the voice inside of me.
The heart you ask me to guard and keep Lord, I am more desperate to give away.
Today I am here again, right were you tried to stop me. My head is buried in-between my thighs, I am crying cause he awakened love when he wasn’t ready for it.
Lord I give you my heart, cause you ask me to guard it, cause out of it flows the issues of life and death, i have tasted the pains love comes with, i don’t know how to guard my Heart Lord, so I throw it to you… Let my body follow.
throw your heart to God and your flesh will follow.
guard your heart diligently, cause out of it flows issues of life and death.
The knock at the door of your heart right now, does it look like it, is it a yes from God?
Do not be in a rush to throw your heart away darling…. Guard it, we are taught that the bibles says to guard our heart but only few preachers take time to teach us how to do it…
I wish I can tell you everything but I can’t…
the man for you will come and when he does, he will come in with the presence of God.
There is no Mr Right, stop searching, you will only tear your heart into pieces..
Mr close enough isn’t it too, he can’t do the magic. Stop living in those fantasies.
Listen to the quiet voice inside of you, it keeps you away from the issues of death.
Guard your heart .
and yes i didn’t go on any date, and it’s not fantasy, I just wanted you to have a mental picture of what I was going to say, I hope you were blessed, sorry I raised any hopes.
the man for me will come…
I was inspired by a book titled what to do until love finds you.
don’t stay idle, do something before love finds you dear….
were you blessed?
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oh and I wrote a quote today, thought I should share